No, no, we're fine, it's not 'us', but we're struggling under an external weight. As you know, in a way my Guardian is also your guardian. He is military. Because of an injury sustained on duty he could no longer continue on his previous assignment, and he was transferred to a base several hours from home. This means that he is not here during the week, and only home on weekends. We thought it would be difficult, but we could live with it because it was only four months until he left the service.
If you remember, we had a countdown on the left side of the blog. This was the countdown till the end of his contract. That date was to be before Christmas. The process was halted due to some administrative errors and the long and short of it is, that his military service continues.
Information is slow, if not impossible to come by. This is frustrating. I had an impression of the military as straight-forward, black and white. They train the black and white into their people. They accept nothing of a nebulous nature... well, unless they are on the side that;s dishing it out. So we are in limbo....let's be real, we're in hell.
He has been gone five out of seven days for just short of eight months and it is wearing us out. We're tired, bone weary. We don't sleep well when we're apart. We're running on 3 hours or less of sleep a night. I cry... a lot. When he is here, it's a rush to do the things we have to do to keep a family of four afloat. And the kids miss him, and want their piece of time with their Daddy, too.
So please pray for us, and our family. The challenges that we face and have faced are and have been mind boggling. We appreciate your support now more than ever.
What can I say, it's draining sometimes. I try to keep us focused on the positive, but it isn't always easy. There are a lot of questions that need answers and a lot of "hurry up and wait." Everything is a blur, but still, despite all the adversity and the challenges and the questions, we are blessed. It is during the time of our greatest trials that we often find our deepest connection. Despite lack of sleep and energy, We remain focused on each other, the growth of our family and the love that keeps it all together!