Friday, March 21, 2014

Where we've been

Friend mouse [mostly mouse] posted a comment on the last post (from September - sigh) asking where we had gone now. We should apologize for being gone so terribly long. We have been mostly in survival mode, and while we love you all, it has been a time to turn inward, and concentrate on us.

No, no, we're fine, it's not 'us', but we're struggling under an external weight. As you know, in a way my Guardian is also your guardian. He is military. Because of an injury sustained on duty he could no longer continue on his previous  assignment, and he was transferred to a base several hours from home. This means that he is not here during the week, and only home on weekends. We thought it would be difficult, but we could live with it because it was only four months until he left the service.

If you remember, we had a countdown on the left side of the blog. This was the countdown till the end of his contract. That date was to be before Christmas. The process was halted due to some administrative errors and the long and short of it is, that his military service continues. 

Information is slow, if not impossible to come by. This is frustrating. I had an impression of the military as straight-forward, black and white. They train the black and white into their people. They accept nothing of a nebulous nature... well, unless they are on the side that;s dishing it out. So we are in limbo....let's be real, we're in hell.

He has been gone five out of seven days for just short of eight months and it is wearing us out. We're tired, bone weary. We don't sleep well when we're apart. We're running on 3 hours or less of sleep a night. I cry... a lot. When he is here, it's a rush to do the things we have to do to keep a family of four afloat. And the kids miss him, and want their piece of time with their Daddy, too.

 So please pray for us, and our family.  The challenges that we face and have faced are and have been mind boggling. We appreciate your support now more than ever.

Her Guardian:
 What can I say, it's draining sometimes.  I try to keep us focused on the positive, but it isn't always easy. There are a lot of questions that need answers and a lot of "hurry up and wait."   Everything is a blur, but still, despite all the adversity and the challenges and the questions, we are blessed. It is during the time of our greatest trials that we often find our deepest connection. Despite lack of sleep and energy,  We remain focused on each other, the growth of our family and the love that keeps it all together!


  1. Missing you in blog land. I wondered what happened. Hugs and prayers for both of you. I think the military has a motto "hurry up and wait" I hate it but it is just the way it is. Nothing is black and white unless you mess up. Then it is by the book. Yep, I remember. Hang in there.

    If you need to chat let me know. Leave a note on my blog to check my email. I forget to check most of the time.

    1. Thanks, Rose :) It's miserable, and I know you know how it feels. Sometimes it's even more frustrating because when I voice my respectfully as seems like Daddy defends them - grrrrrr.

      I will. Probably soon. I have felt the lump rising in my chest as the date his replacement is due inches closer - it takes all I have to bite it back - I just can't wait till it's over.

  2. Sending many, many thoughts, love and hugs your way. That's got to be beyond difficult for everyone. Thank you, Gaurdian for your service. Let's just hope things get straightened out and then things can equalize.

    Love to all,

    1. Thanks, mouse :) Daddy says thank you very much, and it is his pleasure to serve. I hope it works out soon too. I hate feeling like the bottomless pit of need - sigh.

  3. I'm glad you posted this. I've been thinking about you guys and missing you in blogland :)

    I'm so sorry things have not worked out the way you thought and hope things are resolved soon. Such a difficult situation. Sending lots of love and (((Hugs)))


    1. Thanks so much, Roz! Us too. We just want to be done and be together without any more separation. It's too hard to bear.