Thursday, May 1, 2014

What am I without him?

I am a mother of two beautiful children. I am a student. I cook. I clean. I garden. I smile at my neighbors. I had a whole in my chest that threatened to make me implode. My heart beat...but it echoed in my chest, a rattle that frightened me with it's roaring echo through my veins.

He came as a surprise in a little inbox flag, a response to gratitude. And he completed me, filled in the gaps, calmed the raging beat, the rattle. Now the beat is strong and steady, none of those tripping rhythms.

Trust grows....and love.....and devotion.....and I am made whole just for being accepted in my imperfection. I am made beautiful, impossible as it seems. And that which is mended is unbreakable because Daddies never leave, and they make you feel loved, and make you believe in your own beauty for the very first time.


HER GUARDIAN:  The simple magic of true love resounds with deepest echo from every place in my heart.  Her love and kindness filled me with  life....She made me feel alive again just when I thought I would never feel that again. Her heart in perfect synch with mine...this is the greatest blessing that I have ever received.... She is my all, my everything.


  1. Hey CD and Guardian...I so love reading about your love and devotion to one another. IMHO, you two are a beautiful example that each of us should strive to emulate. Thank you for sharing.

    Hugs and Blessings...

  2. Loved reading happy for the two of you....sometimes when we least expect it the best things happen.
    hugs abby

  3. It is amazing how much those little things mean. A phone call, a letter in the mail or a little flag in the in box.

    You are stronger than you know, China Doll. Keep going. One minute at a time if that is what it takes. You will both be together soon and this will be a distant memory. Hugs

  4. So beautiful, thank you for sharing this. The love and devotion you share is truly inspirational.


  5. Guardian and China Doll,

    Even if you're physically not together, mentally your closer than most couples mouse knows. That has far greater staying power...

    Thank you both for continuing to share your thoughts and write here.